Holidaze

Its that time of year again.

Is it just me or does everyone get this weird magical feeling every year at Christmas?

I LOVE CHRISTMAS! Always have. I love the feeling of everyone getting together and being merry. As cheesy as it sounds!

For the first time EVER. Sam and I got ahead of the game and went out and bought Christmas gifts (Stocking stuffers) for his whole family and there was a TON of them. We got my nephews covered. We also drew Secret Santa for my family. We were on it.

This holiday will be a little different for the McCannas though.

Sam got a peek at the rough draft schedule for December a few weeks ago and noticed that he was scheduled off for Dec 24th-27th. YAY we could go home for Christmas

Well I guess some how the file at the squadron was lost with the schedule so they re-did it.

Sam saw that his days off were scheduled for the 28th-31st. We thought ok thats not bad we can work with it.

Well yesterday Sam and I were joking around about going home and said good thing its not on a weekend or I would leave you behind. I said Oh wait when is it?! I haven't looked. He said me either. I look on the calender and IT IS ON A WEEKEND!

well crap

I have to work every Saturday and never requested anything off bc we thought we were safe with the first date. I text my co workers and asked if they would work for me and no response from anyone lol

so now we cant go home for Christmas =[

Not only am I sad bc I want to see our families on Christmas but this is also Lillys first and I wanted to spend it with everyone.

So were sad but well have to get over it bc there isnt anything we can do about it.

I like to think its happening for a reason. This is God not sending us home bc something could happen. He works in ways we dont understand.

Speaking of God. I was talking to a friend at work last weekend about my relationship with him.

I have always believed in God. My mom has always said God will help us and God is always there for us. She has always let me know that He is the reason we have the amazing life we did. Love my momma =) she gave me an amazing foundation to start on.

LOVE YOU MOMMY IF YOU'RE READING!

But I had never owned a bible and rarely went to church.

Until I met Sam.

His family is so WONDERFUL.

His mom has taught me a lot about Jesus. One day in march when Sam and I were planning our wedding I was so severely stressed out I talked to his mom about some feelings I was having. She was so calm and kind and loving. She asked me If I wanted ask Jesus into my heart. I said yes. We stayed on the phone for a long time and she prayed for me and had me repeat a prayer after her. Im not sure if she knew at the time or if I ever told her but I was crying at the time. When we got off the phone I felt relieved. It was so nice to give over everything I was feeling to Him and know that I would be taken care of.

The  next time I went over to his Moms house she had this for me.

My very own Bible.

Notice that says Estreya McCanna and the date was March 2, 2008 a month before we were married =]

Last year for Christmas she also bought me a daily devotional bible to last a year. I haven't finished it yet and I'm VERY far behind lol but I am learning a lot! 

I love my in-laws. I hear people sometimes say the nastiest things about their in-laws and I realize how lucky I am to have such a wonderful Mother-in-Law and Father-in-Law and sister/brothers in law. 

Speaking of how much I love people!

My moms visit last week was so awesome. I love getting uninterrupted time with her! (SORRY SISTELS) we had so much fun. We shopped until we dropped. She bought everything in site for Lilly and Lilly loved it haha 

This was her favorite! She laughs and giggles and plays with it and smacks the rattles around.

Im such a mommas girl I love her so much.

AND

I really miss my sisters! I wish I could see them. I havent seen Wren since Lilly was a week old and haven't seen Rachel since she was 2 weeks old. I miss them and my brother-in-laws and my nephews!

Hope I get to see you guys soon!!!

This post has been ALL OVER the place. 

I'm making a roast tonight for dinner and hopefully its delicious!   

SEE^

tootles