I cannot believe my little princess is already a week old!
Well day 1 and 2 were spent in the hospital.
day three we got to spend all day at home!
Day Four We had to go back to the hospital for a routine check of her billiroubin levels.
the days leading up to our appointment I had notice that Lilly was really turning yellow.
The whites of her eyes were even yellow.
So we even got her dressed up really cute to go out of the house for the first time ever!
My adorable little princess!
So she does great on the car ride there
We get in the hospital and go into the clinic room and the lady who is running Lillys numbers comes and does the light test on her forehead and says that she is a 17 (hospital admittance level is a 14)
Im worried because I want her to be ok but Im not to upset over it because the nurses and everyone told me that if she was admitted to the hospital I would be allowed to be admitted with her.
Since her levels are so high they have to draw her blood to get a moer accurate reading. The nurse comes in with all of the things needed to draw her blood and I cant stand how sad it makes me so I have Sam hold her. She gets poked and of course she wales! heart breaking.
The nurse tells us that her results should be back in about 15 minutes.
45 minutes later she comes in and says she is still waiting to hear from the lab bc there was a water main break and so they are running behind.
Getting a bottle while we wait.
Well about 2 hours later the doctor comes in. Dr. Gopta who is Indian.
He tells me that her blood result came back and it was a 22 which is very high and dangerous.
He says that she needs to be admitted to the NICU for billilight therapy for 36 hours. I listen to him talk about everything they will be doing to her and I say ok were being admitted with her though right?
He looks at me and says no.
I told him that we were told that we would be admitted with her if she had to stay over night.
He kept telling me no and he instantly ticked me off. He didnt even say we will look into it or well try to work something out. Needless to say I wasnt his biggest fan.
I start crying hysterically. And by hysterically I seriously mean uncontrollable. I'm sure a lot of it had to do with my hormones from just having her but I was inconsolable. I am crying so hard and the nurse comes in to get Lilly and she comes over and wraps her arms around me which makes me cry even harder. She then tells me that she needs to take Lilly right now and get her under the lights as soon as possible. I grab her and kiss her all over and hold her for a second and kiss her some more. The nurse tells me once she is stabilized she will come get me and we can go back and see her.
After about 10 minutes I'm still sobbing she comes back and gets us and we go into the NICU and she is off in a little corner by herself =[ there are no other babies or anything around her. She looks very comfy and is laying on her tummy. The nurses explained to me that since she had heart monitors on she can lay on her tummy bc they can monitor everything she is doing.
They did tell me they would bring her out to me for nursing every hour and a half. They would let me nurse her for 30 minutes and then she had to go back in.
I start crying hysterically. And by hysterically I seriously mean uncontrollable. I'm sure a lot of it had to do with my hormones from just having her but I was inconsolable. I am crying so hard and the nurse comes in to get Lilly and she comes over and wraps her arms around me which makes me cry even harder. She then tells me that she needs to take Lilly right now and get her under the lights as soon as possible. I grab her and kiss her all over and hold her for a second and kiss her some more. The nurse tells me once she is stabilized she will come get me and we can go back and see her.
After about 10 minutes I'm still sobbing she comes back and gets us and we go into the NICU and she is off in a little corner by herself =[ there are no other babies or anything around her. She looks very comfy and is laying on her tummy. The nurses explained to me that since she had heart monitors on she can lay on her tummy bc they can monitor everything she is doing.
Her little glow station
Laying with her cute little diaper butt in the air
We go back into the waiting room and Sam had to head home real fast bc the Directv man was there. WELL needless to say the directv man took like 5 hours! The mean while I'm in the waiting room still crying hysterically. I seriously cried for about 12 hours on and off. When we went into the nursery I asked the nurses what happens if she is crying. They said the will try to soothe her but they cant pick her up.
OF COURSE that made me cry even harder knowing that she was only 5 days old and is still insecure and needs to be comforted and soothed. It just broke my heart that thats when she would want me more than ever and I couldn't do that for her.
They did tell me they would bring her out to me for nursing every hour and a half. They would let me nurse her for 30 minutes and then she had to go back in.
My little yellow baby hooked up to her heart monitors
Picture I sent to Sam while he was gone. Looking back at it now you can see how sad I was. It shows in my eyes =[
Making sure to cuddle her as much as I could in the 30 minutes
looking too cute
her little heart monitor
After I took her back to the NICU
I sat in the waiting room for 12 hours and let me tell you that is HORRIFIC on a bum that just gave birth. I couldnt move. I was SO sore and in so much pain from that stupid chair!
In the mean time I was trying to pump enough so that Lillian could have breast milk all night. After about 2 bottles (4ozs) I dried up nothing more was coming out.
Sam finally got back and sat in the waiting room with me and we went and fed Lilly one more time for the night.
It broke my heart to think of leaving this little face for the night. I'm almost crying just writing about it right now.
We went home for the night I think around 9 or so. I cried the whole entire way. We got home and stayed up for an hour or so and I was fine but when we went to bed her blanky was laying by my pillow and I picked it up and it smelled just like her. Of course I cried even more. I cried myself to sleep. I woke up about 3 o clock in the morning and missed her instantly and OF COURSE started crying again.
I called up to the hospital and asked to be transferred to the nursery (for the third time since we left) and the nurse told me she is doing fine and eating good. They had to supplement her with a little formula bc my breast milk ran out. Which I knew would happen anyway.
We wake up the next morning and I am READY to go see my munchkin.
I get ready in probably 5 minutes flat and were out the door!
We get there and the doc tells us if her they drew her numbers this mornign and they were down to 17 he said they will draw it again at 4 and it will determine if she is allowed to come home or not. Talk about a LONG anxious wait. We got there about 8 am I may add.
We decided to take a lunch break. We left about noonish and went to Jimmy Johns and went home to eat it and took a small nap. We headed back at 2 and waited with her in the little corner of the NICU.
Feeding her some breast milk I pumped overnight.
Sam loving on his baby girl.
4 o clock comes around and they draw her blood. poor thing had like 6 band aids on her foot from being poked so much.
We had to wait until 630 for the results
The longest 2 and a half hours ever.
They come back and tell us that her level is a 10!!!!
YES! YES! YES! YES!
She is coming home!
I was ecstatic
Her second homecoming outfit. CATS!
So far its been SO good having her home!
now a lot of little random updates
Officially A Dad. He got poop squirted on him!
Breastfeeding is going pretty good. I'm pumping and feeding her though the bottle and occasionally letting her nurse. I have to make sure she is getting 2-3 ozs ever 2-3 hours for her jaundice. As soon as the jaundice is gone were going back to strictly nursing. This cute little picture she had nursed then fell asleep and I looked down and she just looked to cute with milky on her chin.
Aunt Wren came to visit! She flew in on Saturday evening and left Monday afternoon. We had fun just sitting around the house being bums. She made us a DELICIOUS dinner Saturday night too!
My body progress. Im down 12 lbs from my pre pregnancy weight BUT i had rota virus and lost all that weight during pregnancy so im kinda under weight but kinda not. But Ill hopefully post weekly pictures of my body progress and hopefully Ill be able to see a difference!
Thank you for reading and in two days Ill upload week two lol im a little behind! =]
